Morning Beloveds

I saw this quote on a friend's Facebook and it yelled at my thoughts.

What fixed your vision?

Lately, I have had a number of situations that have reminded me about heartbreaks that gave me a more clear vision afterwards.

Of course, I was in the dark for awhile. Wrapped up in my pain, just like anyone else. I blamed myself for a long time. But eventually, I realized I needed this as a part of my journey. I have not perfected my vision, but it is better.

It was also funny that on the same day my friend posted this, in my Facebook memories there some post I made around the time of some heartbreaking events. They tattoos I consider getting to mark this heartbreak. I am so happy that my better vision showed me not to mark my outer body with pain or sadness. I was carrying enough of that in my heart and mind.

To the right is an edited collage I created as a tattoo. It was to represent myself and the person that broke my heart. As well as the sea of blood I saw afterwards or the angry I felt. I think blood was what I decided to stick with. As calm as I was on the outside, I wanted to cut off his air supply as I felt he cut off mine. Thank goodness, I am not truly violent over emotions. Now touch me and different dance music will play.

The Phoenix is a standard symbol, I just added the colors. Again, I thought of it when I felt like I was coming out of my dark place. Even though I really like looking at others tattoos, I have never been moved enough to get one of my own.

Not saying I have not had my heart pained since then but that one has not been topped. Not that I am trying to out do that one. lol. I have yet to be 'in love' with anyone like that either, yet.

The most important thing, I am not afraid to try to be 'in love' like that again.